Fear Of Loosing

Fear Of loosing

Its been long, i didn't pen down anything on my blog.

We keep Saying, "fear of loosing some one". I feel this is the real in terms non-payable Pain.

I would like share story of my dear friend, who made me realise the real essence of love.
Its pure love that shakes up the thought process of any brave heart. The way he thinks has changed the his life and ppl who are close to him.


It all started for With one frnd request . I asked him, why did u send friend request? His answer was , i sent request we had same last name( felt peculiar).


I ll explain his story in his voice.

Initial Vibes:

It all happened to be a great day in My life.I never felt it was a great day by then, now i can say that was indeed a great day.A
After we got connected, we didn't speak up for a year. One day, she had posted a pic with black Saree on country road. I didn't hit like button  even though, but i made my mind to send her message. she replied. And even i asked when was that pic taken. I explained, the autonomy of that pic . she even complimented for my photography knowledge

some days we spent chatting,though  she never initiated chat( till today she never does).
She was placed in TCS by that time and i was struggling for my survival. I Guided in her in some times, i don't know she took it seriously or not. But started to bloom in career all with her efforts.

we started chatting every often.We started to explore each other.By now we were friends in FB for 2 years.I never said to any of my frnd about her. She also never said about her friends. I started liking her very much. Just by  watching her  on Fb and ping her in FB. spent some time chatting with her. I was happy chatting with her, nothing more. If she needs to end chat also , i never allowed her. Sometime she stopped replying her. we didn't chat  for Long time.

By then we had  some  mutual frnds which i never Knew . My friend sagar called me some day. I have  this very funny nature when i talk to frnds which She never knew. Sagar called me , and he told " I met one of ur frnd and wants to talk to  you ",  i said " ok give". Then I heard her voice for the first time. She " i m Your friend, cant u identify my voice" , and i replied " u r Not lata mangeshkar to remember Ur voice, please tell else give mobile to sagar". This is how i talk to frnds. But she never expected this from me . She told her name.

Uffffff...!!!! I was near Yestwantpur junction. Parked car on road side.i asked her sorry and talked with her for 2 mins. Trust me, i never expected that i ll get call from her. Had gone crazy that day. Till today, i have butterfly in stomach when i think of that day.

By then we shared numbers. I started liking for what she was. she never had such feelings on me. But for me, she had become life. I always wanted her to be happy. I never expected anything from her. Just a reply that she is doing good. I always wanted make her feel special on her special days, but always had a fear tat what will she answer to her friends, that i m frnd whom she  met in FB , never met in Person. I knew that she will not enjoy this. So i never said .

Day by day. I got a fear of loosing her. Still i have a fear of loosing her.I never go to bed without wishing her.I never thought i would love her. Till today, if u ask me when did u started loving her. I would say its a process, which has been carried from day to day, min to min, which made the role of me in her strong as friend. Now when i think of  journey all the way and the feel i have. Now i say, Yes, I LOVE HER  more than my life.

Now, I say her to get marry soon as its peak for her to get married. I asked " will You marry me" . she never answered for this.

But whatever she is the best. I Can do anything for her, i can even  keep my self respect at stake. Really , i never believed in keeping self respect at stake for anyone. But when u see that person is Ur life then what is the use of keeping self respect. She has never been opportunist with me. I never asked anything from her , except her happiness in life.

She will start her new life in some days. I wish all the best for her. She needs best of life.

It was wonderful journey with her. For me , fear of loosing her is itself LOVE. I have gained  that feeling out of blue. I Feel these days are the most wonderful moment of my life.It is now 5 years  and I can still remember everything from that day.I may be older by 5 years from then  and wiser, I may have live another life since , but I know that when my time eventually comes, the memories of these days  will be the final images that float through my mind. I still love her. I ll love her till end of my life.In all these years I've never felt the desire to do so. But this is okay. I smile slightly, looking toward the sky, knowing there's one thing I still haven't told you: I now believe, by the way, that miracles can happen.

JOURNEY to REMEMBER